It's Christmas!!!

Hey I'm back!

It's has been a long time since I last posted something on Blogger.

Well I'm having my sweet semester break now (probably the last long holidays I get unless I do my further studies in the future) . So, I would like to just write something before 2016 ends. =)

Last two months were very tough for me, and yea I do have heard a lot seniors complaining about how tough it was being in final year but the experience was totally out of my expectation. I have heard about people saying they stayed up late for Final Year Project but I never never never thought that I would be staying up for the whole night bla bla bla just to rush for my project (I have forgotten I went through how many sleepless nights casue maybe my brain just want to forget those painful experience hah)! It sounds very very crazy for me and to be honest I still cannot believe I somehow or rather make it you know. Well actually I think that it was still a very crazy and memorable moments for me and two of my best friends to go through things like that in our life. You know... Although those moments almost suffocated me much especially when we were out of idea for this project but somehow I feel safe and sweet as I know I'm not alone in doing all this sh't, I have my friends, side by side and of course we managed to complete the first part of the project at last! (We'll continue the second part in the coming semester and I know it will be much much much more terrible and horrible, so let's just not talk about it now haha)

**Although I almost die from completing the project but good thing is I have lose some weights! I know it is very unhealthy when you lose weight because of stress but... It benefits me more than harm la haha


And... Hey! I have completed one of my life goals last month that I joined Malaysian International Ballet Grand Prix 2016!

Two cute little girls from Primary category. (I cannot tahan the girl in yellow tutu, soooo cute la!!! haha)

New friend >>  Dominic !

One of my stage photos that I have posted on my Instagram and Facebook few weeks ago

I didn't win any award from this competition but I have met a lot of talented friends there, they inspired me a lot ! Being 21 and still dancing is something rare in Malaysia especially in my hometown because it's not our culture to do dance in age like this unless you choose course major in dance. Well sometimes I feel very lonely cause we all grow up and some of your peers just leave or they stop coming to class cause they have moved to somewhere else for further studies. So meeting peers in Senior category from this competition makes me feel like hey.. I'm not alone you know, there are still a lot of young girls at my age do not give up dancing! And you know it was a very hard time for me joining this competition as that week was my submission of final year project as well. So I really feel very thankful for my friends to help me on that project thing so that I can go for this competition without much worries.

Since I am now free, I would like to introduce you guys some DIY for home-deco cause Christmas is just around the corner right? Yeahhh

Below is a link of Paper House Luminaries and I personally think this home-deco is suitable for many festivals, not just Christmas!

http://www.apieceofrainbow.com/diy-paper-house-luminaries/

If you want to see the result before moving your hands, you can watch on how Marzia builds a small village by using these paper houses.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bw3MSFqVvM4&t=16s

Maybe I will upload my version of paper house village once I complete them =)

Besides that, I would like to do something special for myself this Christmas! I want to gift myself these gorgeous palette this year! I know they ain't something new, but somehow I get attracted two days ago and I just wanna get them I don't care whether they are outdated products or what!

TADAAAAA

They ain't something very expensive or branded but I don't care, they are so cute so...

But well I guess I have to wait until my ptptn comes so maybe I can't get it this Christmas but I consider them as my Christmas gift but I'll just receive them later? LOL

Well I wish you have a safe and happy Christmas earlier and I wish you achieve your 2016's target before it becomes 2017's one 

MERRY X-MASSSSS !

** This pancake damn nice I don't might sharing again! Hope to get more Christmas desserts soon!

我们 何尝不都是幸运的？

有时不得不感叹 时间真的真的过得好快！

九月快要结束的同时

2016年就快过得七七八八了

用手指算了一算

十六岁那年误打误闯入我生活里的大鼻

宛如电话那头还在陪着我准备高考的同时

下一秒

时间就飞快的转动着 然后再睁开眼 电影已经播放到陪着我走了不长不短的五年

说好的五年

短得这些年里我还是不变的扮演着学生的角色

长得这些年里所认识的人儿 身旁都纷纷换了好几个伴



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我想 我一直以来都是很幸运的温室里的花

而所有我一直很想要达到的目标 都刚好聚集在了这一年 让我有机会去把他们一一完成


 我记得以前我对自己说过 我想要帮助别人 以一个不是医生的角色去帮助有需要的人

然后 我就很幸运的可以在大学实习的生涯里 遇到了我人生中第一批的自闭孩子

我很幸运的从他们身上学习了很多 也打破了从小到大 自己对自闭的人的一些迷思 或误解

我在他们身上看到了无邪与可爱 也从中看到了自己的丑恶

好比说

因为有的自闭孩子有着对于生活的流程与肢体上顺序流程都有些问题 (sequencing problem) 比方说 对于我们来说 冲凉啊 或着上个厕所都是件不必费脑筋的事情 但是对于他们来说 这可能就像解高级数学般困难的事 脱掉上衣后的下个步骤是什么 把这些公式与正常人来对比的话 可能像解开黑洞的奥秘一样困扰吧

所以呢 因为有着这样的问题 所以我不止担任他们的老师 必要的时候我还会教导他们一些生活技能 甚至是帮助他们冲凉

而刚开始呢 我对于这样的事情是非常非常害怕与恐惧的 甚至还觉得有点肮脏 洗澡的时候呀有时那些小朋友会不小心的小解出来 等等 当下的我真的感到很懊恼！ 我才知道自己是那么那么的渺小 口口声声说过要帮助别人的 然后在面对的时候 我竟然会是那么的不勇敢

然后我突然想到 佛陀说过啊 众生皆是我父母 hmm 可能以前以前或是很多世以前（我相信有轮回）这些小朋友们都是我们父母，家人，朋友，或是对自己重要的人 然后我就开始慢慢的去接受这些事情 慢慢的把他们都当作是自己重要的人 只是这辈子我们没有任何的血缘关系罢了

虽然要让自己这样想是很容易 但要行动起来的时候还真是非常的困难！然后我真的花了一段很长的时间 才让自己不那么的心感厌恶 我不敢说完全没有 但至少能够的是 减少一点点

看着与我们不一样的孩子 试想想 可以拥有健康齐全的身心 何尝不是件最幸运的事了？

世界上有着那么多不幸的人 而上帝偏偏选择把你保存得完好无损 还给了你很多爱着你的人 何尝不是件最幸运的事了？

还有还有我想要说！

我就快要去我人生中第一次的五月天Just Rock It演唱会了！！！（从小学就开始崇拜的，终于可以去见他们了！）

我就要去考我人生中第一次的ballet vocational exam了！(这个华文我不懂怎么说）

我还勇敢的参加了人生中第一次也可能是最后一次的International Ballet Grand Prix了！（还在准备）



看着我其中一位很敬佩的人 做了很多不平凡的事

我想 我也刚要起航了！


致：我们平凡却又不平淡的青春

我们 有着太多的机会去实践

我们 何尝不都是幸运的？

恩，然后呢？

就像天空那么大，可以容得下那么多云朵

说不定，帝云上真的存在着空岛呢？

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有人说 “我想要赚很多很多的钱”

恩，然后呢？

有人说 “我想要用很多的钱去换取自己想要的快乐”

恩，然后呢？

有人说  “钱不是万能，但没钱的时候却是万万不能”

恩，然后呢？

当用了很多很多的金钱去换取了一堆自己想要的快乐后，然后呢？那样的快乐是不是永恒？我想，买了一辆车以后，人们就会向往一件房子，然后再换间比较大的房子，然后再更大的房子，然后再更大更大的房子。。。然后呢？

买了一堆名牌然后就会想买更好更贵的然后越买越多越买越昂贵。

恩，然后呢？

以钱来换取快乐的那种理论下，没有钱的时候就不能用金钱来换取自己要的快乐，然后呢？那样的不快乐是不是永恒？
我想，我曾经有在心里想过，要是我家的房子可以再大一点，再舒适一点，再漂亮一点，就好了。恩，可是我问问自己呀，然后呢？

或许在比较大的房子下换取的是比较忙碌赚钱的父母，然后我会因此而失去的是什么？爸妈陪伴我的时间？还是我最喜欢的陈爸的笑话？

或许这些表面上的文字（陪伴）看起来，读出来，真的好浅白好简单。但感受，却是最最深刻的，少了那些我说不出来的感觉后，我现在的感受又是什么？

以自己的身份在这个地球上只能活一次的机会来讲，我要的是什么？我要以怎样的方式去活着这一次，也是唯一的一次？

我真的很不喜欢随波逐流，而我也很清楚的是我不是因为想要与别人不同而有所不同

我想，如果有机会活得很久很久的话，在临死前，人们还会只是想到用那些金钱所换来的快乐吗？即使没有，就没有其他事情是可以值得快乐的吗？

如果，我是说如果，这世上突然没了金钱的概念，也不需要用金钱去换取一切的物资与享受

你想要的，还会是什么？

我并不是因为自己不是来自富有家庭的孩子而觉得钱不重要，站在一个中庸的平衡点下，我只是很好奇，到底是谁，给了大多的人类一种有钱真好的概念？

当然抛出了这堆问题的我也不是想说我有多伟大多高尚的把钱看淡，当然没有，我也不是想提倡什么帮助别人就可以得到最大的快乐那种很圣神很高境界的feel

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就像天空那么大，可以容得下那么多云朵

说不定，帝云上真的存在着空岛呢？

人生那么短暂，只容得下one last chance的存活率

我可以很勇敢很勇敢的做出决定，选择怎样不让自己后悔的方式活着吗？



在还没得到答案前

我只是在睡前想说


如果以自己的身份在这世上为自己而活着的这一次来说

在临死前

我还想要dance a little，我还想要dream a little

然后在一个怀抱中，安静的死去。

YAPPHY means HAPPY

I just want to say, YAPPHY!!! at this moment

Finally I got myself freedom after weeks of "revision-slaving". Well, I have done my final exam yesterday and that means I make it to wave goodbye to my second year of degree course! I'm finally stepping into my final year man! (Big clap for myself as life is getting hard okay and I'm trying my very very very best to combat with whatever shits that came + going to come!)

Well be honest, my happiness fades away a little...I guess because only shopping or traveling can prolong my happiness for some periods! HAHA. I'm not belong to the so called "happy-kid-after-exam" group I think.

Maybe I'm a slow learner, or my studies are getting harder and harder I don't know, I spent almost 4 weeks just to prepare myself for this exam. What I'm trying to say is that, I feel hurt, I feel hurt physically and emotionally for this overly lengthy type of revision that I set for myself. I feel exhausted for sitting down and studying from morning to midnight, and I hardly get myself enough of rest during the exam week. I feel fat for my weeks of routine that doing nothing but just sit, study, eat, study, and study. Not to mention how my skin condition got worsen for staying late, how I lost my appetite and felt tired of everything, I got extremely bad mood that I didn't feel like contacting with any human kind at all for the past weeks. Hmm I do believe that I really tasted one of the subtopic I did for last semester project --- "entrapment". Ohya, whenever I felt really really stress, I found that imagining myself doing plie with soft music does calm me down. I think it works for me! Maybe those who do ballet like me can try and see? =)

For those who patiently read to this point, I believe some of you might think, "Relax larh, your result doesn't help much when you go out working next time". Well, unless you can pay for my fee =) if not just stay calm and read my post peacefully =) (shut your mouth up). I wouldn't have to try so hard just to keep my scholarship if I came from a rich family. I didn't blame anyone, in fact I feel whatever God gave me helps me to push myself harder and further. I think I wouldn't have achieved whatever I achieved today if I came from a wealthy side.

Okay I think I'm done with the negative side and ohya!!! My university friends paid me a visit today before everyone going for internship. Although the time spent wasn't long, I'm happy enough to have a small kind of gathering with them, talking cock as what we usually do. Hmm I guess I'm able to meet them after 3 or 4 months later.

I promise myself to get good rest before my internship (hmm although I personally believe much in the compensatory theory which I created myself (not the one published, don't google it xD), I think whatever I'm going to do just to fix the bad effects on my body will not work well. My experience for all these years told me that, sleeping excessively doesn't help in fixing whatever shits you done previously on your body. Believe me, the dark circles will stay forever with you T.T...

Talking about compensatory theory that I created myself, it's a bit like plus and minus concept la. For example, if you ate oily food for this meal, then you must eat clean on the next meal, it's like everything that you overly done have to be compensated with something that repress it.

OP time, bye =) !

*OP stands for one piece yeah!

Ohya, recently I'm in love with Matt Stonie (I watched a lot of his videos during my revision's break), you can youtube on his video channel! I think it is stress relieving and satisfying for me to view people who binge eat as I do not have the ability to eat like them HAHA!!!

白费心机

从前有一群在港口的工人，他们接收到了新的一份任务，那就是把从伟大航路回来的船只修理好。而由于船身很大，需要维修的部分也好多，不是三两天就可以办好的。

所以工人们开始到港口附近的树林里去砍伐树木，他们每天都分工合作，当一些人在砍的时候，另一些人就赶紧把砍好的木运到港口去。

过了几个月后，有些工人开始累了，所以有时候就会发生一些工作调配上不公平的现象。好比说，有的工人当天负责砍树的工作比较多，运木的分量比较少。虽然不管是砍树，还是运木，其实都是消耗体力的活。但是有些工人会觉得砍树比较轻松，有的则觉得运木比较不吃力。

可是呢，工人们都有着一种没有默契的默契。他们从来都不说，也不告诉对方其实自己真正想要砍树不想要运木，或其实只想要运木不想要砍树。因为从没有人先开口，所以大家都以为大家觉得公平的是平均的分配好砍树与运木的工作分量。因为从没有人先开口，所以大家都在做着自己认为是对对方好的事情。

有一天，其中一名新来的工人受不了了，然后他就提出了自己的看法。或许他只是一名粗人，说话容易得罪别人，所以慢慢的有些工人开始觉得他其实只是想要偷懒，觉得他其实只是累了想要做轻松的部分。。。

然后那位工人也没有多加解释，即使他之前是最努力，搬运最多树木的工人。别人累的时候，他就帮他们把他们的部分也扛了下来。但是他把树木都运到了错的港口，所以他的努力对别的工人来说是一种负担，因为其他人还得费力的去把树木运回对的港口。看着一道道被树屑，小树枝划破的双手臂早已结了疤，可是其它的工人不懂，因为他们只觉得那个新来的工人懒惰不想砍树，又一再的把木运到了错的地方。

之后工人在那里受了好多好多委屈，所以他决定离开了。

即使，他曾努力的运了好多树木 

但那都只是 白费心机罢了。

好累

 

好累


Art by Cola Gotouryouta / Niigata Prefecture, Japan
http://blog.livedoor.jp/c_o_l_a/
& http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=810305

TeeHee

Okay this is my very first time of trying to write something long in English (well let's not talk about exam la, no choice for that right)

So thanks to the Facebook's "memories" function that reminds me all the shitty and childish things I wrote over the past years. Some of them make me really beh tahan and I just deleted them whenever I saw them cause I really really felt shame just by seeing all those posts (well I know nobody gonna view back whatever I wrote few years ago...but...I just feel too paiseh by just viewing them)

Okay I was once an emo girl (I bet those who are close with me during my secondary school tasted my emo-ness) Whenever I felt sad or emo, I just wrote it out and posted on FB (I guess if I know someone who behave like this now I would have rolled my eyes for 360 degrees..hmm I don't know how to express it accurately or precisely in English but it means a feeling of irritation in Mandarin)

So like everyone else, I had my first puppy love...and I would like to skip all the details...and it ended "suckly". Not to mention anything bad about anyone, my emo-ness shot up dramatically after all.

I became more and more emo, I could not control my feelings and emotions well...to some extent... I cried whenever I entered to school...and my results dropped (well luckily I still managed to grab 9As in my SPM after that -- not saying result in the most important part in my life but that's a sign of I'm back to my track again)

I tried to focus on anything else but not things that remind me on the sad part of my secondary school life...I didn't want my emo-ness to conquer my life anymore! So I started to tell myself that...I wanna manage my own emotions...I don't want to be overwhelmed by negative feelings and I certainly don't want to be beaten down.

Of course things do not go easy at first... I met dabiii after that and things are going smooth these years. HOWEVER...

I'm still an emo girl (I didn't change much actually after that heart-breaking incident). We gone through lots of arguments...problems (especially LDR's problem..you know I'm one of the manja kid with insecure attachment style...so of course I will tend to be overthink whenever he's not around..things like that la)

So luckily (I'm a lucky girl of course), we mange to find our own way of communication, ways to solve problems... not to say we're the "perfect couple" but we certainly are trying our very best to be a better person for each other.

So...at this point in my life, I just want to reflect back on whatever that I have been gone through...


Well certainly I feel that it's what I met (people...friends....environment...) makes me what I am today. All the while, I really do believe that the surrounding people are playing a big big role in constructing us...cause people influence each other right? Like if you meet a gang of friends who don't give a f*** on school stuffs of course eventually (not saying totally) you will be influenced as well.

So I really thanks everyone who came in my life...just to inspire me and encourage me to be a better person... Seeing my friends who care for each others makes me feel like I wanna treat them as good as well...Seeing them treating me good makes me feel like I'm a person who's worth to be loved...

Although the environment thingy is important...I just want to say that the most difficult part is to dealing with the inner you.

It's very very hard to control whenever I feel like throwing temper especially to dabiii...It's very very hard to control myself to not to be overthink...It's really really hard...to control whatever it's inside me. Sometimes I failed, but the feeling of to be proud to myself is indescribable at time where I feel like emoing/throwing temper...but I manage to press it down!

What I learn over these years is that... it's not wrong to be faking to ourselves. Initially, I was just faking that I'm not angry or I'm just fine...The negative feelings are still there but I just pretend like I'm okay with it. And I really tried very hard to ignore them..YES, ignore whatever shits that happened and just focus on something else (well I watched Naruto...be frankly just do something else la, let ur life to be filled with something else). As time passes (well it does not mean you can do it like within 2 or 3 days time...it takes a really loooong time) that I finally used to it. I used to be more calmer whenever I meet things that tend to evoke my emo-ness.

So what I try to say is that, don't give up!!! You will know that it's worth trying after all. Never give up easily if you fail to control whatever you want to control, cause...

I'm still trying, and I will be keep on trying and trying


Cause it really feels good

to be someone that's in charge of own emotions, but not driven by them!

Jia you Jia you

星空

我曾看过一篇正面心理学的文章 (Positive psychology的乱翻译）

人只要保持着微笑的嘴脸几分钟后 好像就真的慢慢能心情好一些

然后啊 就有好多好多的人跳出来说

啊这也不是真正的快乐呀 这样假装的面对自己好吗

其实我也有想过类似的问题


这几年

我很努力的学习当个不那么情绪化的人，尤其是在感情里

当然不是说自己有变得多好，这是肯定没有的 HAHA

也不是说我真的变得那么开朗了

但只是想说

有时候呀，适量与适当的“忽略”自己是好的

忽略自己的坏脾气 忽略那些让自己伤心难过的小事情


我想

谁也不愿意一直被很浓烈的情绪牵引着生活吧？

常看到一些很情绪化的人

易怒易恨 敢说敢讲

或许爆发出来 总比压抑着还要舒服

但我总觉得 爆发出来后 不可能不伤害到任何人吧？


那些属于自己的小情绪真的很重要吗？

那些让自己生气伤心的事情

真的值得一直放在心里吗？


如果真的很难受很难受

那就去看看星空吧

它那么辽阔 多少也可以容得下一点点忧愁



或许我们都应该给自己更多更多的勇气吧

勇敢的与自己的负能量战斗

勇敢的相信自己是办得到的



不欺骗自己，因为自己不会真正的快乐

找个适合自己的方式吧！

=)

很久很久以后

十岁的时候总以为二十几岁的自己很遥远，因为那是很久很久以后的事

就像现在二十几岁的自己，也觉得三十岁是很久很久以后的事

十年总是听起来很遥远，但日子一天一天消逝之下，又往往很快的向我们迈进

忙碌的生活，播放了四五的长寿剧，往往一眨眼，一瞬间，又是另一个十年

想想，其实能呆在自己身边十年的人，好像只有自己的家人

所以我还不能体会除了家人以外，有人可以一直陪在自己身边的感觉是什么

所以呀，常听说某某人现在最好的朋友，还是当年儿时的朋友的时候，真的觉得很棒！


有时候人的感情很脆弱，脆弱的只要彼此不在相同的环境了，话题就会慢慢变少

但当然也有被排除在外，很特别很特别的人


很久很久以后

我们还会像现在一样有好吗？

我不知道

因为我不敢保证自己可以活到很久很久以后

但如果可以

很久很久以后

即使你的身边没有我

我的身边没有你

你也不会像现在一样有话直说

不管以后彼此的关系变得如何


我会记得


很久很久以前有一个傻傻的孩子

很努力很努力追了我很久 学了我最喜欢的吉他 给了我很多欢乐 给了我很大的安全感


很久很久以前有一个很特别的女孩

比何人还要疼爱我 虽然不常在身边 但还是和十几岁的时候一样疼爱我


很久很久以前有一群很乱的女孩

和我住在一起 给我一个很像家的疯子们 很乱很吵 但是我爱


很久很久以前有一群疯狂的孩子

总是很愿意听我讲笑话 陪我一起在班上做过许多疯狂搞笑的事


很久很久以前有一群疯狂的孩子

我们都一样很热爱音乐 我们一起写歌 一起唱歌 一起表演 一起满足彼此的音乐梦


很久很久以前有另一群疯子

我们在凉风习习的夜空下 随着有快有慢的步伐 分享着彼此的彼此

我们有着一首喊破喉咙的歌 有过一段用雨伞，纸张霸占一整排座位的快乐时光





很久很久以后或许你不会在我身边了

但当年与我在一起的你

一直都在

温暖的人

最近开始看了很有名的One Piece！（好啦，其实有大半的原因是最近大鼻不断有鼓吹我看，把OP说得有多好多好，多热血多热血，多感动多感动，还说他看到手毛会站起来之下，我也很想看看OP到底多多厉害。厉害到会让人的手毛站起来 xD）

路飞除了神经很大条之外，还有。。。

神经很大条

对啦，总之就是一个神经很大条很厉害又不管怎样被打都不会死的厉害海贼就对了

然后我有点喜欢他，因为他跟我一样好喜欢吃肉

然后我有点喜欢他，因为他跟我一样神经很大条

然后我有的喜欢他，因为他

很温柔

虽然总是用暴力，喜欢把头，手，脚伸展到长长乱乱来乱乱打坏人

可是他好温柔

不管娜美以前是做什么的，也不管别人怎么说，他就是想要保护她

为什么战斗？

只因为娜美哭了

然后红脚厨师也是个超级大暖男啦

只是不知道脸在kin什么鬼

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我喜欢路飞

更喜欢温暖的人

记得小时候参加一个生活营

其中一个团康活动是要写下喜欢的人的类型

然后我写了 “善良”

我喜欢善良的人

但我更喜欢温暖的人了

因为这世上总是有好多长满刺的人

然后跟这样的人在一起真的好辛苦

因为不管做任何事情都要小心翼翼的

一个不小心

就会被刺上

做个温暖的人吧

即使别人不是

做个温暖的人吧

就像路飞一样温暖的人！！！

等一等

我最擅长与最不擅长的事情，都是同一件事情。那就是等

我好讨厌等待，无论是等待对方的回复，等待考试的前夕，等待上课后别人来载我，或是任何需要等待的事情，我都很很很讨厌

但相反的，讨厌的条件下，我想我在我的人生当中却择了好多的需要等待与需要被等待

六岁开始，我被送到钢琴班里，一等就是十七八岁了。我花了比别人多的时间，在十多年里慢慢的等待，然后顺利的把八级都完成了。这十多年里有过好多好多想要放弃的时候，但我还是一直坚持，一直在等

我喜欢芭蕾，即使连周末或假日都得去上课，但我还是静静的等待，上课上课，考试考试，一年又一年，然后一直坚持着我的坚持，七八年了，但我还是一直坚持，一直在等

我喜欢大鼻，很喜欢很喜欢。虽然说近不近，说远不远，比起其他人，两个小时半的距离其实也不会太遥远。然后因为很喜欢他，所以每次都等着他来找我（因为我没有自己的交通工具）。一等，就是三年。虽然想见的时候不能见，虽然两个人之间常会有不是两个人之间的问题，但我还是一直坚持，一直在等

我希望自己是成熟稳重的，虽然害怕受伤，但我更渴望被经验与世俗所磨练。我想，我会一直坚持，一直等待，一直到我变成那个最喜欢自己的自己

我有很想很想要做的事情，也有很大很大的野心。但当才华撑不起野心前，必先静下心来慢慢学习。想想，明年就毕业了，我告诉自己再读多两年，再坚持多一点一点，再等自己多一点点

我不介意等待



因为我知道
所以需要等待与被等待的
都是我期待的

我期待那一天
当我不必再等待的那一天

=)

智慧牙的灵感 （雾与花）

有时很迷茫

大家都说着不同的看法

毕竟一开始谁不是听着谁的谁而开始产生好感或厌恶感

大家都知道认识一个人决不是靠耳朵，靠耳朵的绝对认识不了一个人

但耳边传来的久了，也会对之有所反应   这是正常的


但我想说


一场漂亮的烟火

听到的人未必会懂

巨响一声以后 当作是雷雨前奏

观看的人未必会懂

烟火坠落以后 感叹喧哗几番后

拍拍屁股就走

设计发射频率的 或许略懂略懂

熟悉的不过是盘算一番后的结果


我想 既然大家都不是很懂

又何必装作一副非常了解似的去揣摩

我想 既然你对我不是很懂

又何必坚持把你自己想要的套用在我这里

反正最终你得不到你要的结果 我也不期盼你会发现真正相反的实况



有多雾里看花  雾就有多迷茫

有多从花看雾  花就有多坚强



越清楚的   反而越不透彻

不要说你懂我

就像一颗卡在牙肉里长不出的智慧牙

每个人都知道会痛，但只有长在自己牙肉里才真的感受到什么叫痛！


不要干扰我  因为我不是脸庞上看来的那么善良

我可以很善良

但前提是

你必须也善良


你要知道

有时一味的善良着 错的人就越觉得那些错误都是非常正确的


话说回来

新年又要到了！！！

可是我好像要长智慧牙了 （感觉就非常非常的痛）

希望只是发热牙龈肿吧！

新年牙痛多扫兴呀！

多多洛

老师 你看他弄我！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！






小时候可以大大声音的打小报告，是件幸福的。告诉了老师后，我们知道老师就会处罚作弄自己的同学。

上了高中以后的 “老师 你看他弄我！” 同学还是一样会被处罚 但难免可能他会叫一大群的同学同时一起讨厌你，所以使你在告状前学会了三思。

而上了大学以后的 “老师 你看他弄我！” 同学不会被老师惩罚，因为老师根本懒得理你。而你也不会同时的被一大群的同学讨厌，因为没有人会去留意到你，没有人会去在意你今天过得顺不顺心。

Lawrence Kohlberg 的人类道德理念基础里，儿童处在的第一级别是最笨，但也是最幸福的



没有什么合情不合理，合理不合情，不合情不合理，或合情合理的复杂交叉组合
小孩才不管你合不合情，合不合理，合理不合情, 或合情不合理呢
他们总坚信着 被处罚的行为，都是不好的行为；被奖励的行为，都是极好的行为
而如果现实总是用那么简单的方程式去运作的话，
我才不管你什么他妈的八点档苦衷，或是偶像剧二女为倒追男主角所演示的内心斗角戏
我才不管我今天会得罪谁明天会惹怒了哪家子或后天又说错了什么
我就是想TMD舒服躺在床睡觉，然后在放一首卢广仲的 别在我睡觉的时候打电话给我

小孩的 你对我好，我就对你好，对大人们来说 简单，却又很困难。

人们总爱用自己的角度去思维问题。

以最简单的causal attribution来说

小儿科的列子有：

我考得好，肯定就是我很厉害的internal attribution
我考得烂，离不了老师很差劲的external attribution

但现实版的列子之2.0就是

看见不顺自己心意的事情，肯定都是TMD别人不好别人的错的external attribution
遇到了刚刚符合自己味道的，肯定都是TMD我你真有缘分的internal attribution





既然人类都有那么多怨言，既然都会有想说又开不了口的无数小报告




我想因为是这样

这个世界上才会有龙猫吧


我坚信这个世界上确实有着属于每个人自己心中的多多洛龙猫
因为只有自己看得到听的到，所以我们都忘记了
忘记是因为我们常常只会抬头往前看，看着自己看不到在别人身旁的多多洛
却忘了奔向后方树林里只要好好许愿就会见得到的多多洛

虽然不在身旁 但只要奔跑 风就会带你到有多多洛的地方

虽然不擅长说话 虽然只会用喊很大声的回应方式来表示 他同意你



然后我知道


再多大大的心愿，再多小小的小报告


多多洛




都听的见！









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