I just want to say, YAPPHY!!! at this moment
Finally I got myself freedom after weeks of "revision-slaving". Well, I have done my final exam yesterday and that means I make it to wave goodbye to my second year of degree course! I'm finally stepping into my final year man! (Big clap for myself as life is getting hard okay and I'm trying my very very very best to combat with whatever shits that came + going to come!)
Well be honest, my happiness fades away a little...I guess because only shopping or traveling can prolong my happiness for some periods! HAHA. I'm not belong to the so called "happy-kid-after-exam" group I think.
Maybe I'm a slow learner, or my studies are getting harder and harder I don't know, I spent almost 4 weeks just to prepare myself for this exam. What I'm trying to say is that, I feel hurt, I feel hurt physically and emotionally for this overly lengthy type of revision that I set for myself. I feel exhausted for sitting down and studying from morning to midnight, and I hardly get myself enough of rest during the exam week. I feel fat for my weeks of routine that doing nothing but just sit, study, eat, study, and study. Not to mention how my skin condition got worsen for staying late, how I lost my appetite and felt tired of everything, I got extremely bad mood that I didn't feel like contacting with any human kind at all for the past weeks. Hmm I do believe that I really tasted one of the subtopic I did for last semester project --- "entrapment". Ohya, whenever I felt really really stress, I found that imagining myself doing plie with soft music does calm me down. I think it works for me! Maybe those who do ballet like me can try and see? =)
For those who patiently read to this point, I believe some of you might think, "Relax larh, your result doesn't help much when you go out working next time". Well, unless you can pay for my fee =) if not just stay calm and read my post peacefully =) (shut your mouth up). I wouldn't have to try so hard just to keep my scholarship if I came from a rich family. I didn't blame anyone, in fact I feel whatever God gave me helps me to push myself harder and further. I think I wouldn't have achieved whatever I achieved today if I came from a wealthy side.
Okay I think I'm done with the negative side and ohya!!! My university friends paid me a visit today before everyone going for internship. Although the time spent wasn't long, I'm happy enough to have a small kind of gathering with them, talking cock as what we usually do. Hmm I guess I'm able to meet them after 3 or 4 months later.
I promise myself to get good rest before my internship (hmm although I personally believe much in the compensatory theory which I created myself (not the one published, don't google it xD), I think whatever I'm going to do just to fix the bad effects on my body will not work well. My experience for all these years told me that, sleeping excessively doesn't help in fixing whatever shits you done previously on your body. Believe me, the dark circles will stay forever with you T.T...
Talking about compensatory theory that I created myself, it's a bit like plus and minus concept la. For example, if you ate oily food for this meal, then you must eat clean on the next meal, it's like everything that you overly done have to be compensated with something that repress it.
OP time, bye =) !
*OP stands for one piece yeah!
Ohya, recently I'm in love with Matt Stonie (I watched a lot of his videos during my revision's break), you can youtube on his video channel! I think it is stress relieving and satisfying for me to view people who binge eat as I do not have the ability to eat like them HAHA!!!
